Monday, August 30, 2010

HULA or coincident lang

"I will love the light for it shows me the way, yet I will endure the darkness because it shows me the stars." -mandino (Pareng RAH's choice)

It’s just another way of saying like I will endure any pain just to be with the person you love, I will reach my goal no matter what it takes, I will see the world no matter how long it takes me to be there, and I will survive life just to live.

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Personally, I’ve been through tough times in my life. It came to the point too that I took my own life because I was stressed out to some situations in my life in the past. I tried na ayosin ko ang buhay ko bago man dumating ang 2012 na pag-iisip ko sa sarili ko… pero parang kulang pa rin, parang lahat ng sacrifices na ginawa ko noon parang nawala na ang lahat. I always told myself na lilipas din naman to pero KAILAN?! PAANO?! That’s the usual na sinasabi ko sa sarili ko. I tried to convince myself not to do crazy things kasi hindi ako ganon and yet nagagawa ko pa rin dahil at that moment sobrang dilim yong paningin ko!

In those darkest hours of my life, unexpectedly light came in…

It’s like this…

I was really about to shoot myself that morning… I received one email from a friend at that time na naging curious ako and to my curiosity I told myself “saka na ako magpapakamatay after ko malaman kung totoo ba ang sabi niya na yon”

So I waited her to wake up and asked her…

I told her “you just want to make me feel better with your email I know but tell me honestly totoo ba yon?!”

She certainly told me that…

“I just want to make you feel better nga but that doesn’t mean na hindi totoo yong sabi ko sayo, totoo yon!”

I was really surprised with her answer and a big part of it I was really happy dahil ang minsan na nakalimutan kong naramdaman ko for her parang nabuhay bigla.

Wala lang…

And we started to have a constant communication and unexpectedly some unusual thing happened…

Hindi naman siya matanong pero one time it just came out from her to ask na…

“ano ba course mo?”

and I told her na hulaan mo…

Halos lahat na ng course sinabi niya hanggang umabot sa pagkasabi niyang...

“Don’t tell me inclined ka sa engineering?! Anong engineering ka ba?!”

I said “yeah and hulaan mo ano sa engineering field ako!”

Lahat na ng course sa engineering sinabi niya and puro lang ako sabi na “hindi yang mga sinasabi mo”

And finally she said “don’t tell me archi ka architecture”

Then I told her that “YES! I graduated Civil Engineering and Architecture!”

She answered me back “Hindi nga?! Hindi nga?! Totoo!? Wag magbiro!”

Nafeel ko kung gaano siya nataranta, nafeel ko kung gano siya parang natatakot and nafeel ko that moment yong saya yong ngiti niya and parang naramdaman kong she’s so cold hearing to what I just told her…

And I laughed and told her straight na “oo nga! Ano ba kasi ang meron?!”

Then she revealed…

She was telling me with this dream she had years way back… she keep on dreaming about it, a guy na laging nagdadala ng ruler…

… and one of her friend nong college pa siya na hinulaan siya and ang sabi bago siya mag 30 years old she will meet an architect and that person will be her fate or somehow to be her partner in life.

So ako sabi ko “owwss?” Then I added “hala ka!”

We were just laughing and I told her “it’s just a hula, coincident lang yon… relax!”

To me it was nothing, REALLY! Kasi she’s into a relationship at that time and ako naman yon ang mga panahon na hinahanap ko rin ang sarili ko, binubuo ko ang sarili ko dahil wasak nga ito.

We ended the conversation pero honestly may “goosebumps ako!”

So parang wala lang nangyari… nakalimutan na namin yon.

Until one morning I woke up I felt something different but was not telling her because I know the situation, basically it can’t be the two of us and at that time AYOKO na talaga dahil I felt like I was born to be hurt lang.

prior ang lahat ng mga napag-usapan, nangyari we have communication pero hindi madalas, bihira lang din kami mag-usap, hindi naman ganon kami naging close, naging close lang kami na parang isang araw lang noon… yong araw na naisipan kong mag 2012 na ang buhay ko. Dati may gusto na ako sa kanya pero I was thinking na may asawa siya so ang taas nga ng expectation ko kasi ang ganda niya sobra. One time nakita ko lang yong facebook account niya na ang profile pic niya eh kasama niya yong long time boyfriend niya, hindi naman ako nagselos kasi wala naman dahilan pero sobrang nadisappointed lang ako dahil honest to goodness ang nasabi ko that moment eh “ay ano ba yan disaster hindi sila bagay! She’s too pretty for that guy!” so wala lang since then ayaw ko na siyang kausapin dahil sobrang nadisappoint lang ako talaga yon lang yon!

I don’t believe on magic but it happened… I don’t know where, when and how it all started between us…

Until one day we both decided to fight what we’ve got for each other, until one day we both realize we love each other, until one day we both realize that we’ve been thinking about each other… everything has been changed without us noticing it.

When we both decided to be with each other parang nag-suicide kaming dalawa… dumaan talaga kami sa butas ng karayom. We didn’t mean to hurt somebody else just to be happy, nagkataon lang that the fate we chose eh ganon ang situation. Mahirap kasi we know may nasasaktan, may nagagalit and walang araw na dumaan na hindi kami nahirapan, nasasaktan, nagagalit, napipikon pero still parang wala kaming karapatan to feel that way dahil we know may mali but we fought the love we had for each other. We always secured each other that at the end of the day we still have each other, that we will make it through until everything will fall into its proper place.

Dumating din ang araw na natapos ang lahat… naging tahimik and both parties pero nagtagal din ng mga three months mahigit, ang hirap pero lagi nga niyang sinasabi sa akin na dati na “I will endure any pain just to be with you, kahit paulit-ulit pa akong masaktan I will still endure it because of the great love I have for you!”

We went through together sa darkness ng buhay namin pero we secure na one day we will still find that light and mahanap din naman ang daan na maging tama na lahat ng mali, matapos na ang mga pagkakamali in the past and IT HAPPENED!

Masarap ang feeling na dadaan ka sa hirap before you will taste the sweetness of life. Mas inalagaan namin ang isa’t isa dahil alam namin hindi madali ang pinagdaanan namin just to have each other now. Hindi madaling masaktan na sabay nagmamahal ka rin. In this lifetime we have now, mas nabigyan namin halaga ang isa’t isa at mas naintidihan namin ano ang ibig sabihin ng relationship and mas naintindihan namin anong ibig sabihin ng salitang pagmamahal… isa lang yan ang alam namin SACRIFICE! After all the sacrifice we have… we endured it… we lived with it… learned with it and now we see the light after the darkness we went through.

I thank you! (bow) hahahaha


Friday, August 27, 2010

Sorry Na phoE

Sinubukan ko pumunta sa hate page ng mga chinese sa facebook regarding the Quirino Hostage Drama. My gulay. Galit na galit talaga sila. Eto ang link.

Maraming mga noypi ang nagsosorry. At marami din mga taga Hong Kong ang napapa fuck you etc. etc. etc. Yung mga ibang sinasabi nila hindi ko na maintindihan chinese characters kasi.

Kaya naman nagcomment ako. Sabi ko...

"Churi na pho3. whaag nah pho3 keheo g4lit. P43ce na poh tau. Churi N4 pho. "

Isa sa mga mejo magaling magingless eh si Allen Lin, since public naman ang page na yon, ipopost ko nalang dito ang example ng kung gaano sila kagalit:

Allen Lin oh. sorry I am not from Philippine and I don't need to know how to spell "FILIPINOS" OR so call "PINOY". Luckily, too many Filipino working in Hong Kong already cause a lot social problem FYI. If you can spell so good why don't you be politician in Phillipine and make your country more efficient and less corrupt so "NO ONE GET KILL OR ROB".

Allen Lin Another proven fact that Philippine law enforcement not only retarded, untrained, and coward. They also steal from dead bodies. Luckily, I am not Filipino. How come I am not surprise all the valuable belonging are disappear from victim's dead body. Yes, I am unfortunate soul, but still better than people like you got no "SOUL".

Allen Lin Hello!! this is the fact!! Chinese people live in Philippine get rob, kick nap, and kill. As of today no Filipino get kill, rob, or kidnap in Hong Kong. Filipino lives in Hong Kong are protect by the law and integrity. Chinese people liv...e in Philippine needs to pay for protection?? and no law to protect us. Now who is more racist. It is easy to hide behind the "Racism" topic to dilute people's attention.
It doesn't matter if I am making idiot of myself or not. THIS IS FREEDOM OF SPEECH. I speak whatever I want to say and choose not to be hypocrite.

Mejo hindi ako nakapagtimpi ng konti at kahit na pigil na pigil na talaga ako, HINDI ko parin napigilin na magreply sa thread.

Rah: If you insist on making this a RACIAL issue Mr. Allen Lin, you are making an idiot out of your self. Fortunately your public display of ignorance and stupidity is an isolated case. Your narrow minded way of thinking should be ignored.

And fortunately nagrespond naman siya.

Allen Lin FYI: Rah <---- response niya eto sa sagot ko sa kanya.
1. I don't hate Filipino, but I am sure angry.

2. For past years Chinese people always are targets at Philippine and I don't see any improvement from Philippine gov't. I am so angry.

3. Sure Filipino in Hong Kong are innocent and nothing to with this tragedy, but issue must escalate to diplomatic and political level to pressure Philippine gov't. Stop issuing visa to Filipino worker is one way to pressure Philippine gov't. We can't just simply accept the apology and let go this issue. Philippine system needs to be change, law and order must be enforced.

4. I don't regret the comments I make for Philippine law enforcement. Who the hell will take a big smiling picture in the crime scene when 10 people got kill? and why students can take picture in crime scene like nothing happen? Why valuable belonging from dead people are disappear? Why Philippine police arrest Mendoza's family to make him go insane? there are too many reasons I can get angry but certainly not racism.

Lam mo, hindi ko talaga sila mablame kung bakit sila galit na galit. Paano ba naman sila hindi magagalit sa mga picture na to?






















Hindi talaga enough ang sorry. Dapat umeffort din.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Ten things the Philippines bus siege police got wrong


Crouching police
A security analyst who has worked in counter-terrorism with the British Army and Scotland Yard, Charles Shoebridge, says the officers involved in Manila's bus siege showed great courage - but they were not properly trained or equipped for the task.

Here are 10 areas where, in his view, they could have done better.

1. Determination

Philippine police end Manila bus hijack
The first officers who tried to storm the bus were driven out by gunshots from the hostage taker, former policeman Rolando Mendoza. "They showed great courage to go on board. It's very crowded, just one aisle down the middle of the bus. But once you get on board it's not unexpected you are going to be fired at. Squads like this have to be made up of very special people, specially trained and selected for their characteristics of courage, determination and aggression. In this case they acted as 99% of the population would have, which was to turn round and get out. They didn't seem to have the necessary determination and aggression to follow the attack through."

2. Lack of equipment
The police spent a long time smashing the windows of the bus, whereas explosive charges (known as frame charges) would have knocked in windows and doors instantly. "They had no ladders to get through the windows. They smashed the windows but didn't know what to do next," Mr Shoebridge says. "They almost looked like a group of vandals." Their firearms were also inappropriate - some had pistols, some had assault rifles. Ideally they would have carried a short submachine gun, suitable for use in confined spaces.

3. Lost opportunity to disarm the gunman
Negotiators Mendoza's gun was not always raised
There were numerous opportunities to restrain the gunman, Mr Shoebridge believes. "The negotiators were so close to him, and he had his weapon hanging down by his side. He could have been disabled without having to kill him."

4. Lost opportunity to shoot the gunman
The video of the drama also shows there were occasions when the gunman was standing alone, during the course of the day, and could have been shot by a sharpshooter. "You are dealing with an unpredictable and irrational individual. The rule should be that if in the course of negotiations an opportunity arises to end the situation decisively, it should be taken," Mr Shoebridge says. Either this possibility did not occur to the officers in charge, he adds, or they considered it and decided to carry on talking.

5. Satisfying the gunman's demands
"I wondered why the authorities just didn't give in to all of his demands," says Charles Shoebridge. "A promise extracted under force is not a promise that you are required to honour. Nobody wants to give in to the demands of terrorists, but in a situation like this, which did not involve a terrorist group, or release of prisoners, they could have just accepted his demands. He could be reinstated in the police - and then be immediately put in prison for life for hostage taking." The Philippines authorities did in fact give in to the gunman's demands, but too little, too late. One message promised to review his case, while he wanted it formally dismissed. A second message reinstating him as a police offer only arrived after the shooting had started.

6. Televised proceedings
The gunman was able to follow events on television, revealing to him everything that was going on around him. This was a "crucial defect in the police handling", Mr Shoebridge says. He adds that police should always consider putting a barrier or screen around the area, to shield the scene from the cameras and keep the hostage taker in the dark.

7. No element of surprise
It was clear to the gunman what the police were doing at all times, not only because the whole incident was televised, but also because they moved "laboriously slowly", Mr Shoebridge says. The police did not distract him, so were unable to exploit the "crucial element of surprise".

8. Safeguarding the public
Injured bystander This boy, a bystander, was hit by a stray bullet
At least one bystander was shot, possibly because the public was allowed too close. The bullet from an M16 rifle, as carried by the gunman, can travel for about a mile, so preventing any risk of injury would have been difficult, Mr Shoebridge says, but a lot more could have been done. "When you saw the camera view from above, it was clear there was little command and control of the public on the ground," he says.

9. Using the gunman's brother to negotiate Relatives and close friends can be a double-edged sword, Mr Shoebridge says.
While they may have leverage over the hostage taker, what they are saying cannot be easily controlled. In this case, the gunman's brother was included in the negotiations - however, at a certain stage he became agitated and police started to remove him from the scene. The gunman saw this on television, and became agitated himself. According to one report he fired a warning shot.

10. Insufficient training
In some parts of the Philippines, such as Mindanao, hostage taking is not an uncommon occurrence, so the country has some forces that are well trained in the necessary tactics. The detachment involved in Monday's incident clearly was not, says Mr Shoebridge. After smashing the windows, one of the officers eventually put some CS gas inside, though "to what effect was not clear" he says. A unit involved in this work, needs to be "trained again and again, repeatedly practising precisely this kind of scenario," he says.

from http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-asia-pacific-11069616

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

anong major major problem ang naencounter mo sa buhay mo, and how did you solve it?

anong major major problem ang naencounter mo sa buhay mo, and how did you solve it?

Answer here

Monday, August 23, 2010

Tadhana

Naniniwala ako sa tadhana.
Sa makatuwid, maaaring ang mga tao na naniniwala
na nasa kamay nila ang kapalaran
ay daig pa ang nagbubulagbulagan?
Kung tutuosin:
Kung mga bagay na nasa palad mo 
mas sigurado ang mga bagay na hindi mo hawak:
tulad ng bukang liwayway, 
tulad ng takipsilim,
tulad ng pagusbong ng buhay,
tulad ng pagdating ni  kamatayan.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Corny vs Baduy


Love is madness!
Lahat ng nagmamahal tanga! 
Pero kung tutuosin, wala naman matalino pag dating sa pagibig. 
Dahil ang pagiging matalino at pagmamahal ng sabay ay hindi romantic.
Ang taong hindi romantic ay corny. 
Ang taong romantic ay baduy. 
Kung papipiliin mo ako kung anong mas maganda, corny or baduy - mas pipiliin ko yung baduy.

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Ayy Bol

! Pictures, Images and Photos

Hindi ko alam ang eksakto kong naramdaman ng sinabi mong gusto mo na akong makita ng personal.
Parang tumigil saglit sa pag-ikot ang aking mundo ng mga sandaling iyon.
Bumilis ang pagtibok ng aking puso, pinagpawisan ng malamig at natulala ng bahagya.

Nahihiya kasi ako sa iyo na makipagkita. Una, ang guapo guapo mo para kang si Papa Piolo.
Kapag pinagtabi tayo para lang akong alalay mo.
Pangalawa, natatakot ako baka kapag nakita kita lalo akong magkagusto sa iyo ng bonggang bongga.
Sa larawan mo nga lang gustong gusto na kita paano nalang kaya sa personal.
Pero sa totoo lang kinilig ako noong ikaw na mismo ang nagsabi na makikipagkita ka na sa akin.

Sige, kahit nahihiya ako pumayag na akong makipagkita sa iyo sayang din ang pagkakataong ito.
Naku po tiyak mag-aayos ako nito ng hindi mapahiya sa iyo. Baka kasi may makasalubong kang kaibigan mo habang kasama ako nakakahiya naman diba kapag mukha akong pulubi.

Isang araw bago sumapit ang takdang araw ng ating pagtatagpo naghanda ako ng ng konting kaartehan sa katawan.
Magpapa "BELO" sana ako kaso kinapos pera ko kaya nag "CALAYAN" nalang ako. Pinakiskis ko lang naman ang aking mukhang paboritong tambayan ng mga tagyawat.
Pagkatapos noon nagpakulay ako ng aking mga kuko sa paa at kamay doon sa "POSH NAILS" Itim na kulay sana ipapalalagay ko kaso baka masyadong mahalata mo kaya kulay Pula nalang pinili ko.
Umuwi na ako ng bahay pagktapos noon para makapaghanda ng susuutin ko kinabukasan.
Natulog ako ng maaga para hindi mapuyat at gumanda naman kahit sandali ang kutis ko.

Dumating na araw na aking pinakahihintay.
Linggo ng umaga, parang biglang sumakit tiyan ko sa kaba.
Pinakalma ko ang aking nangangarag na katawan.
Naligo na ako.
Nagpabango.
Nagbihis ng aking paboritong damit.
Naglagay ng konting pampapula sa labi para naman hindi mo mahalata kung mamutla man ako habang kausap ka.
Hindi na ako naglagay ng pampapula sa pisngi tiyak mamumula pisngi ko kapag kaharap na kita.

Pumunta na ako sa ating tagpuan.
Pasensya ha nahuli ako ng 5 minuto kakahiya man pero ni minsan kasi hindi ako dumadating sa eksaktong oras kung may katagpo ako. Isa pa nahirapan akong pumili kung anong susuutin kong hikaw na babagay sa aking damit.

Sa wakas nagkita na tayo.
Ang guapo mo sa personal.
Ang ganda ng iyong ngiti at ang bango bango mo.
Habang minamasdan kita hindi maalis sa mukha ko na mangiti.
Para lang akong nananaginip habang kausap kita.

Biglang may inabot kang puting sobre sa akin.
Tinanong kita kung ano iyon.
Pero hindi ka sumagot ang tangi mo lang sinabi sa akin ay basahin ko.
"Wedding Invitation card?, Sinong ikakasal?"
"Ako"
"Seryoso?"
"Oo"
"Ang swerte naman ng mapapangasawa mo"
"Mas ma swerte ako kung ikaw iyon"
"Huwag mo nga akong binibiro"
"Hindi nga, basahin mo kasi kung anong nakasulat diyan"
"Sige, oh bakit walang petsa ng kasal at walang pangalan ng aasawahin mo"
"Kung papayag ka na maging girlfriend ko ngayon, tiyak pangalan mo ang mailalagay diyan balang araw at iyon ay kung iyong mamarapatin"

At biglang tumunog ang aking alarm clock
"Lintik na panaginip akala ko totoo na"

Haysss......
Ayun nag prepare nalang ako ng bonggang bongga para sa aming mating este meeting pala hahahaha......
Makikita ko na si Kachat mamaya sana yung panaginip ko maging totoo kahit 1 second lng para naman kiligin ako na parang tinedjer lols~~
Poootragess na pag-ibig,,,
Di ko pa nga nakikita eh nainloves na si Ako sa kanya haha..

Goodluck namen sa aming pagtatagpo............